In my previous blog, I was finding my direction and following Spirit. Through my Guides and clairaudience, I was asked to do more Automatic Writing and then asked to create a Facebook "to get the message out to those who need help by inspiration of the words of Sprit". Yay, I finally achieved this and I was so happy. Then, I had a few people look at it and comment that I need to push to get it out there and begin to advertise to do readings. They kept asking about my progress, giving advise and I felt that I should start doing something like a lot of other people were doing. In my area of the World, we are coming out of lockdown and slowly moving back to some kind of new normal. It is perfect timing to start doing readings. Over the past few weeks, I have prepared for this but I cannot bring myself to put on my page that I am doing readings. I have felt uncomfortable at the thought of these readings but I can't explain why, and what should have been a simple task with the Facebook page turned into a huge drama. Nothing I did was simple or positive. I tried to push through it, but found I was in a downward spiral starting with my energy and vibration dropping, making me not feel like meditating which turned into many days. I felt I had no energy and had become quite negative. I told myself that I can change that and get back into it but found it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. The more this continued the less I could hear my Guides. I did a meditation to go and ask my Guides what was going on but couldn't make sense of my meditation and kept going to sleep. I was very frustrated a bit later when I looked up to the ceiling and said "why is this happening, what is the purpose and how can I change it" The voice of my Guide said "You need to go back to your book (Spirit Messages) and read them to understand what we asked." So I did and I found it asked for Automatic Writing to go on my Facebook page to inspire people. "Events will not move until after October." That's when I realised I was running my own agenda by trying to do readings before I am meant to. Then, I asked "What is the purpose or lesson in this" and my Guide said "You need to realise you are easily influenced by other people and you only need to listen to Spirit." I got it, I realised, I had the light bulb moment and it all changed, what a relief!
And I just realised, right in this second with my thoughts that yesterday I was given the date for my shoulder operation to be end of July, which is a good reason why I need to wait until after October. We just can't see it, until we see it.
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